welcome to the world of neurosis

So I am neurotic, I think I have said that before on here - WebMd and all those other sites are the antichrist I think.

I was in the ER on Monday, then had to go to the doctor on Wednesday as a follow up. I had noticed a bump on my head MONTHS ago, doesn't hurt, didn't bother me but figured while I was there I would ask about it. Bad idea. CT scan was done Friday. She said she thought it was bone, it was hard like bone but she couldn't be sure because I didn't know how long it was there.

Yeah, WebMd not good. I have a physical on the 1st and hopefully will hear then because right now I am sitting here with major stress on my shoulders. My upper back is tight and achy and my shoulders, down my neck...its stress and asthma and the like but damn, I am neurotic.

Course its also monetary issuses as well. Friday we should be getting the income tax back, I am keeping my fingers crossed because we are behind just slightly...and that doesn't help the tension I got going on.

Welcome to my world of neurosis.

a wheezing body hurts

The weather has changed again, while it is not the cold that literally hurts me, it is warmer...but the change of weather hurts me too. My asthma likes steady temps, hot and humid actually work where cold and dry do not. My upper back is a mass of knots from the wheezing and I feel as if I have run a marathon. It will get better, but I hate feeling like this.

It gives me NO ambition.

Today is 8 years of marriage. I love him dearly and cannot imagine my life without him. Of course if you want to be technical we have been together for 16 years now...or almost, somewhere in that vicinity. It amazes me. Love really is spectacular, hard days and all.

hello sun gods

A fresh start. 2010 ends up wtih me in the ER because of the asthma. Since when was Florida supposed to have freezing temperatures?! And temps that only reach a high of 54 during the day, I did not sign up for this.

I have no idea how the hell I lived in the snow. It boogles the mind. So here I sit surrounded by mostly folded clothes, wheezing and coughing and generally tired from the breathing struggles. They put me on steroids and neb treatments and all those lovely things, makes my heart race on occasion but at least now I can walk across the house without having to have my inhaler.

Now sun gods, can we please have warmer temps again. Thank you.