a tiny corner in the big bad world

Sometimes I forget the things that are right in front of me and I wonder if its easier that way.

There days where I wish I had a million readers on here and could shout out bits of wisdom as quickly as my children can gather their burps and do the ABCs. And then I wake up and realize that I am glad I don't have a million readers, I think my number stands at 10...but I bet maybe two of you actually read. This is my place.

I thought for so long that I was done with the blogging world but this is my little space.

blech

My brother made detective...I am happy for him, I am...

but after 10 months of job searching I have nothing.

too loudly

The clock ticks softly, or maybe its the soft whirr of fan blades or thesubtle nuances of the television -

its almost midnight and the house is dark, finally after a full day of company. Sometimes you really can see enough of someone.

I am feeling suffocated by hurt lately, family members that were once so close are now distant and unable to look at me. I just want to know what I did wrong.

Night always speaks too loudly.

all better in the world of mothers and daughters

All is better, seems the world's axis has shifted and I just don't give a shit anymore. Seriously, it makes for much easier days. I am thrilled for her, she deserves this but the responsibility falls to me now and I have to admit, the toll is being taken.

But its alright.

I have been too exhausted to even write at the moment, terrible when its my shrink. I feel like I should talk to the computer and ask if I should lay on that ugly plush couch in the corner. Confess my insecurities and write checks for obsence amounts.

clock hands travel.

I sat waiting - yesterday, today. Did you know the minute hands don't move on the clock when you are physcially staring at them. And the doctors and the nurses, all their faces begin to look the same and sound the same. Its like some strange version of a weird sci-fi movie.

She had surgery, it was a simply procedure and in truth she is dead from the neck down (as she says) but it was to pull the innards upwards. Leaking is a bitch apparently and really rather smelly. She breezed through but the clock, that clock is a motherfucker.

I was out on the highway again right after dropping the children off, one was wheezing and the other complained of a bellyache - some days school is my enemy. But they were off and of course were fine. But the drive, the traffic, it sucks. I lived on the turnpike, 408 and I4 there was just no way around anything.

It makes you wonder what people are thinking when they drive. The radios playing, many cell phones out. Who really wants to be on the cell phone right away?

Obama says...

Obama says, “Families are off limits.”


I can perhaps agree with that in a sense, but when you are in the eye of the public everything will be analyzed – and even more so when you foundation says you speak of abstinence and doing away with birth control. So every step analyzed, every gesture recorded and every syllable taken apart. Is it right, perhaps not but it is what happens.

Yes, I am talking of Palin a woman with less than two years experience and no international experience at all. How do we put someone like that into office? How would it even be right and how does McCain have the gall to have picked her when he preached of Obama’s lack of experience. It is the pot calling the kettle black.

And it isn’t right.

Everyone is indeed entitled to their own opinions, and I would agree that the state of this country is awful. It needs change, it needs revitalization but it needs to continue moving forward and not backward. The human rights need to stay intact, the rights of woman, my god if birth control is done away with we become a third world country getting abortions of birth control in dirty corners where everything is less than clean.

It boggles my mind, did McCain truly believe he would woe Hilary supporters because of palin’s vagina? Her platform is not similar, he stance is not similar and she surely doesn’t have the same charisma as Hilary did (at least in my opinion). The second boggle to my mind is, does McCain really believe that the staunch Christians would even want to see a woman in office, I mean really let’s think about it.

Politics are a three ring circus, but I really think that McCain has dug his grave electing Palin as VP.

disgusted.

I really need to tackle the politics. Its on tomorrow or Tuesday's agenda. It is perhaps one of the first elections where I am truly, truly following. Details, histories, everything.

And I am disgusted.