Thursday, August 21, 2008
nagging screens bite back
Some days I feel like a failure. I sit at the screen and see all these words but nothing comes together, nothing makes sense to me - and it scares me. Me, someone who truly and fully loves words. I've always wanted to write, wanted to be something and show my words to everyone...
and now they just seem lost. I hate the self doubt, the feeling of failure to myself. It will pass, it always does but these seconds, these moments where the screen mocks me -
I swear I can hear the sarcastic laughter and the finger pointing. The computer makes me feel like I am in school again with snide jokes and red faces, eyes downcast and lost in the sea of oblivion. Its like I am just not popular anymore.
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I know the feeling. I've had to being writing as though no one is reading and ya know what? It's helped.
BTW, I don't know if I'm coming back to Bloop...I just don't "feel it" there anymore, for some reason. Just thought I'd let you know.
*muah*
I'm not feeling the writing bug much either. Even jotting down my daily grind...somedays it's too much just to do it. And I use to LOVE journaling.
Since the last Bloop disaster..I feel like we're all drifting away, and I don't like it.
but this isn't about me..it's about you. And sometimes there are just slumps.
I'm sure you'll get out of your's, in time. Don't pressure yourself. Just let go, and when it's time to write..you'll know it.
xooxxo
I understand the feeling.
What I don't do, is agree with it!
You are one of the most consistantly amazing writers that I have ever been blessed to know.
Like many poets before you, your value and fame extend well beyond your ability to comprehend them.
We can only see today, this moment, but as I return time after time, I not only see, but feel the beauty of our work. As always M~
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